i don't think we ever grow out of our insecurities. For awhile I thought that the older we got the less we worried about what other people think of us we would be. She'll always worry about seeing her old high school crush at a friend's wedding, even though she's happily married, has a house and a great job. She'll always avoid people she knows because small talk makes her uncomfortable and she's sure they're laughing at her back as she walks away. It comforts me to know that I'm not the only one who is still like this.
Work might be frustrating me. I might feel invisible sometimes.
I miss North Carolina a lot these days. I am not unhappy here nor do I regret moving back. The exact opposite in fact. I'm just lucky enough to have two homes and when I am in one my heart is in the other. I also miss Bette and am not sure why she had to go so far away that I cannot reach her by cell phone. Upsetting that I cannot share random goodness with her. Email is not the same.
I recently finished the most amazing book I have ever read, Three Cups of Tea by Greg Mortensen. This book literally changed my life and I beg you to read it. In fact I will buy it for you. It honestly deserves some sort of review but I've lent it to Sam so that will have to wait. Please at least check out the website - www.threecupsoftea.com. It is truly amazing the impact that one man can have on so many people.
I like receiving lamps, talking about taking trips and talking on the phone for at least half an hour every night I don't see you. I could get used to this but probably shouldn't let myself do that. Just in case. A girl's gotta be on the defensive because you never know.
And now you must explain to me why I am up at 1:15AM on a week day. I blame the cookies.